i had a terrible encounter with reality today, damnit. i’m not getting into berkeley/standford/mit/etc and it’s ok. (i’m not feeling the ‘it’s ok’ part yet i’m just hoping it will dain to show up soon) i focused on calculus and frittered away my time so now i have a B in spanish and sucky PSAT scores. according to mr. subbiah’s numbers i wouldn’t get into UCLA or SD if i was a junior, and honors society is sooo far beyond my reach. i know happiness isn’t guaranteed by the best college but saying it over and over isn’t making me feel better. AND they look for people who are well rounded and crap so i might as well be a..a…sharp piece of glass. give me a break that’s the best analogy i could come up with seeing as i bombed that part on the PSATs. i also need to get some dumber friends because everyone i know pulls 4.0’s out of their hats which is not even a concern of theirs because in this day and age you need like 4.3. is it possible to get a 4.8 in 10th grade?! that girl was lying through her pearly white perfectly straight teeth if you think i’m jealous, you’re right.